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2006-09-20 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: I know, very confusing but hey, that's what i'm here for. Yesh!
2006-09-22 [Atikin]: If your friends require counseling or friendship please feel free to have them mssg me anytime. I'm not sure what you mean though, I am nothing special so why am I so interesting? Forgive me, that sounded vain. I apologize ^_^
2006-09-22 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: I'm not asking anybody for advice, I am here to help.
2006-09-23 [Atikin]: I only seek salvation in a world of darkness.
2006-09-23 [Crimson Angel]: Guardian, you are special because you have potential. We all do, but it matters not what we all have, but what we do with it. I know that you are capable of making your life turn in what ever direction you beleive in. If you only beleive you are destined to fail, then you will. However if you actually beleive that you can do something worth while, then you can.
2006-09-24 [Atikin]: It is not that I believe that I will fail. I would rather my friends find happiness than myself. I tried to fall in love once. It didn't work out. So I've dedicated myself to helping my friends find happiness. ^_^ By doing this I've found peace.
2006-09-24 [Crimson Angel]: That is always a good thing, however you have to remember to think of yourself once and a while. Friends are only so much of your life, life will go on, and friends will move, go other places, and when they are gone, you will be left alone, unless you find a new type of friendship
2006-09-27 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: ^.^ carries on scribbiling in note book
2006-09-28 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: You must always keep yourself in mind becasue if you don't you'll end up just hurting yourself more in the end than if a friend did.
2006-09-28 [Atikin]: Please don't worry so much about me ^_^ Life does go on, and yes, friends do move away and you are filled with loneliness and despair, but such is life. I cannot expect everything to go the way I want it. That would be selfish ^_^ I understand what you are saying, and I get the general moral of the conversation. Thank you for caring for me so much. I am afraid that I may not be able to get much more, not for a few months at least. I am unfortunately going through a move. Please forgive my absence. -Johannes
2006-09-29 [Crimson Angel]: Nah thats cool, I understand that you are busy. And remember that you can always send someone a message, and get help from anyone at any time if you need it. I try to check my messages every day, so I am willing to help you if you need it. This goes for everyone, never be scared to ask for help, or ask if you need help. I can give advice, and help settle worries. All you gotta do is leave me a message
2006-10-02 [Crimson Angel]: There problem solved. That conversation is, gone. And it will stay gone. I am sorry that it came here, and it will not happen again. If messages are left, please don't comment on them, and when I get on they will be deleted.
2006-10-03 [Atikin]: That is enough [Charles the Medic]! How could you say things like that?!? Even if you have justification for saying such things?!? There are some things that are better left unsaid. It is my personal opinion that you are unwelcome here. Please leave, this is a solice for those who have problems, it is not here for people to harrass and abuse other's feelings. Please leave.
2006-10-03 [Charles the Medic]: you all suck ass
2006-10-04 [Crimson Angel]: Charles, please don't post on here anymore. You are unwelcome, so please leave us all alone.
2006-10-04 [Charles the Medic]: why? is it over the fact that you have that much hate inside...
Stupid High school people...
problem solved :)
stop your shit,,
and everyone on this site stop messaging me.
2006-10-04 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: CAOD, I have heard you are telling people that all of us have "problems" things we can't handle and we use this site just to bitch to all of you about it. Is this true?
2006-10-05 [Crimson Angel]: No. When I said something close to that in a message, the person took it wrong. There are some people on here who have pmed me about suicide, and that what that was referring to. And what I said about the people who come here, are those seeking advice, not those wanting to bitch.
2006-10-05 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Alright, I was trying to start anything, I was just needed to know.
2006-10-05 [Charles the Medic]: she is lieing .. i have the email...
2006-10-05 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Ok.. Well send it too me and I will dechipher it myself. Please and thank you!
2006-10-05 [Charles the Medic]: send it to you where???
2006-10-05 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Through a PM on here. Er der. Lol.
2006-10-05 [Crimson Angel]: Charles is trying to 'smear' my reputation because of a fight we had. I apologize if any wrong ideas are given to any one. This wiki is a strong passion of mine, and I wouldn't still own it if it wasn't important to me. And the people on here are the reason it is important to me, because blank pages mean nothing to me. It's the people here that cause me to want to come back and check it every day.
2006-10-06 [Charles the Medic]: i'll send you it as soon as i can.. Insanity Within
chuck
2006-10-07 [Charles the Medic]: look CAOD
If i really wanted to " smear" your reputation
i whould have done it by now..
but i was trying to be nice and you were a bitch about the whole thing
so guess what...
i will do what you said...
i will "smear" you
sorry...it had to become this...
2006-10-07 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Alright, listen, I jsut recieved the message which pertained to CAOD "talking shit" about the rest of us, she actually gives a shit, so back off, and don't "smear" her because it won't be worth it, grow the fuck up and stop trying to fuck with everybody else's reputation.
2006-10-08 [Charles the Medic]: and you think i don't give a shit????
and do you think i am happy that
that others fuck with my reputation like CAOD??
FUCK NO!!
you grow up..
2006-10-08 [Crimson Angel]: I am serious in the fact I want this to stop now. I mean it. This is not a place to continue this argument. This is not a place for personal fights. Charles, if you have an issue with me, message me about, and don't make it every one else's problem.
2006-10-08 [Charles the Medic]: hmm who ever said it was a argument??? i have issues with you yes..
2006-10-08 [Crimson Angel]: Then message me and keep it off the comments please.
2006-10-08 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: I personally think that a contribution from all of us could help solve this, exact, shall we say... Disagreement.
2006-10-08 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: ok can we go back to problems?
2006-10-08 [Crimson Angel]: I appriciate your willingness to help, but the only way for this problem to end, is for this to stop. And yes, we can go back to whatever you need help with Goddess
2006-10-08 [Charles the Medic]: how can we help you today Ditzy Goddess of Wisdom???
2006-10-09 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: What's going on DGOW?
2006-10-10 [Atikin]: If I may be of any assistance, then please feel free to tell me.
2006-10-11 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: She like.. ran away... COME BACK!!!! :(
2006-10-14 [Atikin]: All must choose their own path. When they are ready, they will find their way.
2006-10-15 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Yes I know. Sometimes their path may not be right for them, it is up to them to seek the help when they are in times of need.
2006-10-15 [Crimson Angel]: It is also possible that they have already found help through another venue.
2006-10-16 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Possibly...
2006-10-19 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: SORRY SORT OF DROPED OF THE FACE OF THE EARTH FOR A WHILE, ANYWAY YEH THE PROBLEMS STILL STANDS.
OK
I HAVE THREE FRIENDS WHO ARE ALL NICE GOOD PEOPLE OK START OF MATE A STARTED GOING OUT WITH MATE B THEN HE FELL FOR MATE C SO AT A DRUNKEN PARTY A AND C GOT OFF WITH EACH OTHER AND B DUMPED A THEN SHE SELF HARMED.
I'M NOT SURE WHO'S SIDE TO BE ON. ALL MY OTHER FRIENDS HAVE TURNED AGAINST A AND C BUT I DON'T SEE WHAT THEY DID WRONG, I MEAN YOU CAN'T HELP WHO YOU FALL FOR. BUT I DON'T WANT TO LOSE ANY OF MY FRIENDS.
.<
2006-10-19 [Crimson Angel]: Okay, so what you really need to do is sit down with A and talk with her. She seems to have a lot of problems that need to be worked out.
First about the relationship thing. She needs to decide who she likes the most, then take that from there. Make appologies, or move on.
About her SI (Self Injury) talk to her about it. See if maybe you can find out why she does it. Everyone that does has a specific reason that they do, whether it is a form of release, or a form of expression, so whatever. If you can convince her to talk to someone, a couselor, parent, teacher, pyschiatrist, or pyschologist, then definately encourage that.
I hope that helped you, if you have any more questoins you can message me
2006-10-23 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: ok thanks
*gives big hug*
2006-10-23 [Atikin]: I'm not sure how to feel about your situation, but I will be here for you if you need me. I hope things work out.
2006-10-24 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: I'm here as well. hugs
2006-10-24 [Crimson Angel]: You are welcome. And for anyone who needs any help, I am available whenever I am on the computer.
AOL: weirdchick876
Yahoo and Xfire: whitewolve5555
MSN: whitewolve5555
If anyone ever needs to talk to me, and don't want to wait until the next time I log onto ET
2006-10-30 [Charles the Medic]: LOOK CAOD!!!
I WANT YOU TO KNOCK YOUR CRAP OFF RIGHT NOW
THE DEATH TREATH TOWARDS ME.. (yeah come on give me a break your a 16 year old girl..)
STOP THE LIEING!!
JUST STOP TALKING TO PEOPLE ABOUT ME AND STOP TALKING TO MY FRIENDS
GET IT THRU YOUR 16 YEAR OLD HEAD :)
AND PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE,
2006-10-30 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Whoa.. What was that about Charles?
2006-10-30 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: no idea ¬¬
2006-10-30 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Yeah.. COAD, do you know what he is talking about?
2006-10-31 [Crimson Angel]: Honestly, I have no clue. I have no idea what friends he is talking about, nor would I even want to do that. There is no need for that, and I have not.
2006-10-31 [Charles the Medic]: Honestly, I have no clue NOTHING!!
YOUR LIEING you stupid 16 year old..
STOP YOUR LIES!!
2006-10-31 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Charles, knock your shit off, right now. That is no way to address any problems whatsoever.
2006-10-31 [Charles the Medic]: YOU KNOW WHAT STAY OUT OF THIS LFY!!!
AND SHUT THE HELL UP YOU HAVE NO CLUE WHAT CRAP SHES PUTTING ME THRU!!!
2006-10-31 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Listen Charles, i'm just sitting here reading along, you got a problem, address it to us all, because all you're doing right now is making an ass out of yourself.
2006-11-01 [Crimson Angel]: I have not spoken to any of his friends except the maybe the ones that I know from camp that he knows as well, but even then I am not talking about him, about talking to them about other things, like the play I am in, not about him.
2006-11-01 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: I understand what you are saying hun, but Charles is being a selfish little.. Shall I say.. brat? Taking this situation and blowing it up to make the whole world give him the wrong kind of attention.
2006-11-01 [Charles the Medic]: hum.. um no...
like she has said she has talked to people i know from camp
and a little birdy from there told me "some things she had said about me) recently..
2006-11-01 [Crimson Angel]: I will say yet again. This is not the place for arguments, you are not welcome on this page, so please stop commenting. If you have something to say to me, then say it in a PM
2006-11-01 [Charles the Medic]: like you will ever reply back to me!!
YOU TOLD ME TO LEAVE YOU THE FUCK ALONE!!
MAKE UP YOUR MIND!!
2006-11-01 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: If you do not stop harassing us here Charles, we will report you to the guards. Now tone it down.
2006-11-01 [Crimson Angel]: Well I would like you to leave me alone. But I would prefer your badgering at least if nothing else not bother other people as well
2006-11-01 [Charles the Medic]: hum yeah first you want me to pm you so we can talk about this..
but now you tell you you wish that i would just leave you alone
do the math bre....
and make up your mind,,,
2006-11-02 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Be nice Charles.
2006-11-02 [Crimson Angel]: Well if you would take the hint, and leave me alone I would like that the most. However if you insist in continually stalking me, then please go right ahead, just don't bother other people with it.
2006-11-02 [Charles the Medic]: you leave me alone and quit your lies to others
ok..
andi sure wish that you would quit asking me to pm you when your never goin to reply and just bitch about it when i do!!
like i said before
YOU DO NOT WANT TO WORK OUT PROBLEMS OUT you just want to walk away and foget about your problems hopeing they will go away...
2006-11-02 [Crimson Angel]: I have not talked to any of your friends. I don't know how many times I need to state that. And yes, I am hoping you will go away. So please leave me alone. I have made it very clear I don't want to speak with you, so please leave me, and everyone else here alone.
2006-11-02 [Charles the Medic]: you want to know somthing,,,
i am just amused by how little you think things out...
ok explain to me why i am hearing back stuff from them that you have said about me and this whole death treath thing...
how did that whole thing came up?
2006-11-03 [Crimson Angel]: Okay, first off, I have never threatened your life. Second off I don't even know who the hell you are talking about.
2006-11-03 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Keep your cool CAOD, you're bigger than that! :)
2006-11-03 [Crimson Angel]: Ya, i know. This is just getting old. I just would like him to leave me alone. I am not talking to people about him, and I don't like him saying that I am.
2006-11-03 [Charles the Medic]: you and lfy have the minds of 16 year olds.. by now i would think that by now you should have a clue..
2006-11-04 [Atikin]: Hello all ^_^
2006-11-04 [Crimson Angel]: Hello GAF how are you?
2006-11-04 [Atikin]: Please... call me Ati. I am fine. Yourself?
2006-11-04 [Crimson Angel]: Well I am pretty sick this weekend, but I'm still having a fun time laying around watching TV and relaxing
2006-11-04 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: o.O
2006-11-04 [Crimson Angel]: hum?
2006-11-05 [Atikin]: No video games? *nudges Crimson*
2006-11-06 [Crimson Angel]: not really.... can't get to ps2
2006-11-06 [Atikin]: *sadness*
2006-11-06 [Crimson Angel]: I'll live, I got all my friends on ET to keep me entertained
2006-11-11 [Charles the Medic]: LOL!! thats one reason why i put my ps2 in my computer!!
i don't have to go to it now..!
2006-11-17 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: haha
2006-11-17 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: I have lots of music on my computer so I don't need games to keep me occupied... Mwhaha
2006-11-18 [Crimson Angel]: lol
2006-11-19 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: *looks on worried and mutters "i wonder if i ignore the if they would just go away"*
2006-11-23 [Atikin]: That never works Ditzy... trust me... >.>
2006-11-24 [Crimson Angel]: Yea, it's just like asking if we stopo voting will they go away. Although we would like to think so... it just won't ever work.
2006-11-24 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: LOL
2006-12-02 [Charles the Medic]: hmmmm,,,
2006-12-03 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: .>
2006-12-29 [Charles the Medic]: wow this board is S.L.OW!
2006-12-29 [Charles the Medic]: but not as S.L.O.W as BRES socalled boy friend going after other girls when hes at school LOL!!!!
2006-12-30 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Jeesh, boys.... BAH lol
2006-12-30 [Charles the Medic]: hua?
2006-12-30 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Nevermind lol
2006-12-31 [Crimson Angel]: He's not going after other girls Chuck, and I would like you to please stop trying to make issues between my boyfriend and I just because we are happy. So please just stop commenting on this board.
2006-12-31 [Charles the Medic]: hmmm well thats what i have heard from people..
sorry if you think other wise...
2006-12-31 [Crimson Angel]: Well I have faith in my boyfriend, so thanks for your thoughts, but I think I am okay :)
2007-01-01 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Alright, at least we are being civil.
2007-01-01 [Crimson Angel]: Yea, I don't like to fight.
2007-01-02 [Charles the Medic]: yeah i was just going to say the samething...
why the change of heart...???
2007-01-02 [Crimson Angel]: I've always wanted to avoid a fight, and I chose to due that by avoiding the situation altogether
2007-01-03 [Charles the Medic]: wow you do that a lot..
to the point you lose friends over it,,
2007-01-03 [Crimson Angel]: Thats okay, I still have the friends that matter to me
2007-01-03 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: That's good to hear.
2007-01-04 [Crimson Angel]: Yup =D
2007-01-07 [Charles the Medic]: ^a person that thinks like that has mental problems..
i meen come on when they don't even care if they lose a friend..
and REMOVE ME FROM your other web site its full of lies,,
thats like
if you lost all of your friends you
would not care...
like you don't give a crap about anyone that is on this page..
2007-01-08 [Crimson Angel]: I do care if I lose my friends. I still have my friends, and I am better off without the ones I don't talk to anymore, because if they didn't want to hear what I said, then they aren't true friends. And I do care about those that are on this page, otherwise I would not still be here.
Please stop trying to cause problems, and stop harassing me.
2007-01-08 [Art squall]: ....sounds like a point to me ^_^
2007-01-08 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: A point from whom?
2007-01-08 [Crimson Angel]: I think they were refering to "if they didn't want to hear what I said, then they aren't true friends."
2007-01-09 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Ahhh, gothca.
2007-01-09 [Charles the Medic]: well i like it when there are such stupid people that can't pull there heads out of there ass and admit they ARE WORNG!
2007-01-09 [Crimson Angel]: Charles, please stop insulting me, as well as the people on this wiki. Please do not comment anymore, you are unwelcome here.
2007-01-09 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Yes please, unless you have something nmice to say, don't say anything, because you're insulting all of us when you start insulting one person.
2007-01-10 [Charles the Medic]: if she would pull her head out of her ass and STOP DELETING EVERY THING I SAY ON HERE!
2007-01-10 [Crimson Angel]: I have not deleted a single message, every single message, however rude they may be, are still on here
2007-01-10 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Just stop it Charles, she's not even doing anything to you and you just have this infested thought to start badgering her, just stop it.
2007-01-13 [Art squall]: You guys should just stop talking to each other at once. ^_^ just forget the other, forget what they said in the past and just chill with some cheesecake, relax, you can't change a person's mind. Just act as if you two never met. ^_^
2007-01-13 [Crimson Angel]: Thats what I have been trying to do, and every time I think it is over, he will get back on and leave another message
2007-01-14 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Well maybe if we ALL just ignore him, maybe he'll just go away.
2007-01-14 [Charles the Medic]: i have to agree with artsquall YOU CAN"T CHANGE A PERSON"S MIND!!
this is a free world you want me to leave so bad why don't you just IGNORE the Stuff you don't want to see... O yeah i forgot YOU THINK EVERY THING I SAY IS WRONG...
YOU AND LOW FAT YOGURT SHOULD SHUT UP>>>
number one the only person that even knows who i am IS CRIMSON ANGEL OF DEATH,,
AND SHE HAS A PROBLEM WITH EVERY THING THAT I DO...
AND EVERY THING I SAY!!
2007-01-14 [Crimson Angel]: Because you are saying stuff about me and the people I care about that is not true. My boy friend does not cheat on me, and my friends do care about me, and never once have I gone out of my way to ruin your life.
2007-01-25 [Art squall]: I LIKE MONKEYS @_@
2007-01-26 [Crimson Angel]: ..........
2007-01-26 [Sunrose]: Comment deleted. There is no reason to continue arguing now.
2007-01-26 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Alright... Sorry... Didn't mean to keep it going. *sigh*
2007-02-05 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: I Like CHIPMONKS
2007-02-06 [Art squall]: I like roasted chipmonks ^_^
2007-02-06 [Crimson Angel]: .....ew
2007-02-07 [Art squall]: all nice and crispy ^_^, I can just hear the enjoying crunching and munching on those cute delicious little things...
2007-02-08 [Crimson Angel]: poor little chipmunks...
2007-02-09 [Art squall]: poor delicious chipmunks :D
2007-02-09 [Sunrose]: Comment deleted yet again.
It doesn't matter what your comment is about, I requested for you to stay away from this wiki at whole. You have no reason to be here [Charles the Medic].
I will also delete any other comments about this, it's time you all actually move on!
2007-02-11 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: You can't rost them!
2007-02-11 [Crimson Angel]: okay... enough talking about the poor chipmunks. so what did you all do for the superbowl?
2007-02-11 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: The what?
I'm british just incase it's do do with america.
2007-02-12 [Art squall]: I was on the computer, hanging out in Elftown....pre
2007-02-12 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Superbowl was AMAZING! Lol
2007-02-13 [Crimson Angel]: lol.... and for DGW it is the final game of american football for the season
2007-02-17 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Hrmm.
2007-02-17 [Art squall]: how was ya'll's V-Day? ^_^
2007-02-17 [Crimson Angel]: Good, but kind of depressing because I couldn't be with my boyfriend
2007-02-18 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: humm
2007-02-21 [Art squall]: well....I was lonely...and I think some people forgot me....but now they remember ^_^ because I make them remember, ReMeMbEr Me like you do with CLUE *the movie*!!!!!
2007-02-21 [Crimson Angel]: lol, Well I am glad you are feeling better now.
2007-02-23 [Art squall]: *YAY*
2007-02-23 [Crimson Angel]: hehe
2007-04-16 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: .<
2007-04-16 [Crimson Angel]: .....?
2007-04-17 [Art squall]: lol
2007-04-17 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: I'm so lost. Lol.
2007-04-18 [Crimson Angel]: so am I
2007-04-19 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Lol.
2007-04-19 [Art squall]: I lose loads of people everyday with my thinking :D
2007-04-19 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: I sometimes do, or when I'm in the mood to, I fight people with logic. Great, great fun. Lol.
2007-04-20 [Crimson Angel]: if you can't dazzle them with brilliance baffle them with bulshit
2007-04-20 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: EXACTLY!
2007-04-20 [Crimson Angel]: although there was about 3 spelling mistakes in that lol
2007-04-20 [Intolerant Of Hatred]: Yeah, I still got the point though. Lol.
2007-04-22 [Crimson Angel]: lol
2007-06-12 [Art squall]: lol awesome in the same ^_^
2007-06-14 [Crimson Angel]: yup
2007-06-21 [Tragedy In Trend]: I forgot who's page I saw this on, but I always take time out to hear what other people are going through.
2008-01-09 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: hey guys, whoo first comment of the new Year!
2008-01-09 [Lhung Eruva]: ^^
2008-01-09 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: Yous have an eventfull Xmas at all, mine was kinda boaring
2008-01-09 [Lhung Eruva]: Small, quiet, relaxing.
2008-01-09 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: Relaxation is good....
2008-01-09 [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]: mm, yeah, it is
2008-01-09 [Lhung Eruva]: You bet.
2008-01-20 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: does anyone elce get really quite i dunno, down during night time....
2008-01-21 [Lhung Eruva]: What do you mean?
2008-01-21 [Crimson Angel]: I personally think too much at night, so sometimes yes. But whats bothering you hun?
2008-01-27 [+♥+SAFFY+♥+]: dunno, just can't sleep... can't stop thinking bout things.
2008-11-14 [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]: wowww...has it really been this long...
2008-11-14 [Tragedy In Trend]: Yes sadly, it's kind of upsetting that no one's up here much anymore =/
2008-11-15 [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]: oh yeah, you're here too >.>
2008-11-15 [Tragedy In Trend]: I was here first lol =P
2008-11-15 [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]: actually i was here first,
as here to help category, i'm the 31 there =P in that list...
and I forgot I was on the list so I added myself to the lonely AND here to help category =P
2008-11-15 [Tragedy In Trend]: Ah okay. Well I didn't see you up there. I'd been looking at it for a while though - waay back when, when I didn't get on as much as I should have lol
2008-11-15 [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]: oh, hehe =P
2008-11-16 [Crimson Angel]: Yea, I haven't been getting on nearly as much as I should, being the owner and all, but my life has gotten so complicated. I;m in an apartment with my BF, working two part time jobs, while going to college full time.
As far as emotionally, I'm still fighting depression, anorexia, bulimia, self injury, and a whole lot of other issues..... So yes, life is fun :)
2008-11-17 [Tragedy In Trend]: My counselor wants to help me. I've been going into her office just for light conversation to make me not think about all those things and then today I slipped up and now she knows I always think about suicide, don't want to eat and am afraid I'm going insane. She made me promise I won't think about the "'S' word" (her best friend last year passed away from self infliction and she said she couldn't go through that again) so I'm now going to be in her office every day. So I guess that's an up for me.
But you being the owner of this page has nothing to do with coming on as often, some people need to change themselves for the better on their own. Venting is good but in the end it's about the change - obviously we'll be here if you ask for help but I know I can understand your slight distance. Meanwhile, good luck on school because I've been taking online lately and it's kicking my ass!
2008-11-18 [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]: Oh. Well you're not alone. I think about it every night before I go to sleep. Night time is always the worst, yet I love the night..as long as I'm talking to somebody.
If I'm alone though I slowly drive myself insane...oddly enough.
And then I start thinking about bunch of different things.
Time stands still. And then who knows...But I can snap out of it if I hear someone coming towards the kitchen (my computer is basically in it)
2008-11-21 [Tragedy In Trend]: See mine is just a constant stream of it all. I'm always thinking about it. I wasn't with Austin but that fucked up and blew in my face. And not the good kind of blow, the kind that would involve cum. No the blow that's the reverse of a fucking vacuum. Although it feels like a vacuum 'cause everything's disappearing..
2008-11-21 [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]: oh. and yeah I got what you meant without the adding of the cum detail =P lol
hrm...oh and i'll be talking to you on weekends on phone until i get txting back >_<
2008-11-22 [Tragedy In Trend]: Okay that works. Sorry I can't really talk to you at night on the weekdays much. I'm also doing shit. But then I'm not. I don't get it.
2008-11-22 [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]: It's ok. Do what you need -huggles-
2008-11-22 [Tragedy In Trend]: Fuck if I knew what I need...I wouldn't be in this situation.
Or maybe I know what I need but I can't have it. But that's just human nature right?
2008-11-22 [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]: Hrm...Honestly I'm not quite sure.
Sometimes what you want is what you need.
Sometimes what you need is something you weren't
thinking you wanted but end up wanting it when it happens.
Idk.
2008-11-23 [Tragedy In Trend]: I don't know either =/ This is upsetting. I apparently don't know anything.
2008-11-23 [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]: Oh sure you do -huggles-
more than you give yourself credit for.
maybe pick up meditation, clear your mind?
that may help.
As of late I have been listening to Otep.
I like the song Perfectly Flawed.
"you're not even you yet."
"A work in progress"
2008-11-27 [Tragedy In Trend]: I've tried meditation. I can't calm my mind enough to do it.
I like Burried Alive, House of Secrets and Special Pets best.
"I'm in the mouth of madness/with a tongue of poetry/I ate the spine of Atlas/ now the world is crushing me/I hate my life"
"I, I, I...I don't feel pretty today..."
"When you scream it sounds like a lullaby...I need new lovers in my bed...I need new voices in my head to speak my secret evils with..."
I love Otep Shamaya. She's amazing.
2008-11-27 [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]: I like thots, suicide trees, buried alive, crooked spoons, and perfectly flawed. Andrenochrome Dreams is interesting too.
2008-12-02 [Tragedy In Trend]: LOOOOOVE suicide trees
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